My Counsellor Predicted My Mom Would Ruin My Wedding Day

I didn’t want to believe that it could be true.

This was the question I had been dreading. How do you put into words how much pain you are in? And how do you express it in a way that someone else can understand when you don’t even fully understand these feelings yourself?

I took a deep breath and forced myself to be brave. I explained that I was experiencing a lot of stress during a time where a lot of life changes were occurring. I was starting a new job and getting married. The added stress was making me feel close to a mental health relapse.

The counsellor gently prompted me to elaborate on what I meant by stress. About fifteen minutes must have gone by when I realised all I had talked about was my mother. Until that point, I had no idea that was why I felt so stressed. I had assumed I was fragile and not built for managing real life.

The words fell out of my mouth before I couldn’t stop myself.

I spent the entire session saying things I had always known deep down to be true. When you love someone, especially a parent, it’s easier to believe you are the one in the wrong. It was easier to believe I was fragile, weak, and unable to cope, rather than face the fact that my mother had been emotionally abusing me my entire life.

The counsellor looked at me and smiled sympathetically. She knew I’d come to a huge realisation and how much pain it was causing me. Every time I had experienced a mental health relapse there had been a common theme. It was so obvious, but it was almost like I had forced myself to ignore it.

No one. No one had been a parent to me. Sure, I was cared for physically. I was never hungry and all of my basic needs were attended to. But nobody parented me emotionally. Instead, it was expected that I took on the responsibility for supporting my…

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